I know in my heart that control is just an illusion. Yet, as a recovering type A personality, I still feel the need to have everything in order. I’ve felt completely out of control since I was diagnosed with cancer a year ago last June. I felt semi out of control since I developed CRPS in 2003. I don’t need to have everything planned out, but I do seem to need to have a clear direction and a clear agenda of what I want to accomplish and how I want to face the world, as I am at this time. So...I’m going to try something out. I’m going to see if I can’t develop muscles I have lost over time.
The biggest two challenges will be how to exercise with a foot that sometimes is ok to have weight on it and sometimes not ... and ... my right collarbone is still falling, so I need to make sure I don’t do any lasting damage by pushing those muscles to work.
Now I just need to figure out what that means and how I can proceed. I’ll be talking with all my care providers this week. This is step one.
Go hug your loved ones and *tell* them you love them!
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